But He said to me, “My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 

That is why FOR Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians: 9-10 

Today I ran…even though I felt the weight of so many thoughts on my shoulders. I had noticed the last couple days it was much easier for me to focus on others gifts and spent much of the time focusing on all of my weaknesses. 

I woke up defeated. 

I read the news and felt more defeated. I spoke with friends whose lives and real are so very hard and painful. And I felt defeated for them. The past week I found myself falling back into daily insulting of myself. This super pointed criticism of myself that comes almost too naturally. It is defeating because I have come so far to find my joy. 

In the last year, if you knew me, you would see I have come so far…so today as I looked at the myself- before I even thought I grabbed my shoes, and before I knew it I was heading out. 

I felt the sun on my shoulders and I ran. It wasn’t fast. The pollen kicked my butt. I had to walk a couple times. But with each step I prayed and let go of stuff. The stuff that’s been filling my head and my heart. I didn’t stop until I was emptied out. 

When I came home, with in minutes I found this verse…

I wasn’t stronger. I am weak. 

But I am good. 

Under the night sky- His Grace is sufficient.